its been 18 years now since you left my life paul,
my beautiful son and best mate, you made my life
happy made me laugh with your funny sense of humour
I miss your smile and your loving caring ways, still seems like yesterday since you went away, and I know i will see you again when its my turn, Love you son and miss you everyday xxxx

Di, the "best twin in the whole wide world". I still miss you so much Sis, and wish you were here. Also my mum, dad and Martin.

My dad Anil Keshavji died on the 12 October 2011 from a silent heart attack in his sleep which was a shock to everyone because he was fit + healthy. 1 minute he was there and the next he wasn't. It was like switching a light off. It was a great shock to me because I was in Barcelona on a school trip, and I didn't know about it. My mum didn't tell me because I was coming back in 2 days and it would worry me when I was far away from home.

We love you dad,we miss every minute and every hour of the day, you will never be forgotten

xxxxxx

My Dad died of liver cancer on the 15/03/2011, this memory is special to me because it give me strength when I feel weak.

When we found out for certain that he was going to die we came home from the hospital and I in shock went straight up to bed. My dad being the wonderful father he was came up and got in bed with me like he used to when I was young and couldn't sleep, he said to me these exact words which I will never allow myself to forget..

'We don't do this elly, we do not hide from what is to come. We stay strong, we say I love you and we get through it.'

Thinking back to that moment will always put a tear in my eye but I know that like always he was and is right.

Amy-teresa lasam... i never shared a single memory with you amd thats what i find the hardest. my little baby sis, the plans i had for us two, the fights, the gossips, the make-overs, the first crus, each and every birthday and christmas... all gone now never to be experienced. Always&Forever in my heart MyAngel. love you! xoxoxoxoxox

To Dad, you have only been gone for Three weeks today and am only just realising what has actually happened, I will never forget you and will always think about you. Things may have been complicated but you should never of left us this early on in your life, we will all remember the good times and wish that you were still here, i wish there was more that i could have done and I really hope you are in a better place

love always x

In memory of my darling cousin Jorge Calado Marques died on the 23 of September 2009 in Portugal.
My darling boy
What end you had
you were such joy your life so sad
Your ashes encased
alone and forgotten
no name or embrace
your fate so rotten
two of us together
At Parede we swam
thinking it for ever
remembering feels num
may be in the waves
may be in the sky
your trusting heart
does make me cry
Farewell my boy
you are no more
Milu,s little mate
The One I Adored.Miluxxxx

To Mum,

I don't really know what to type on here. It has been 17 years yet I still think about you every day. The fact that you are not here affects me in every day life, from functioning as a person academically to socially. My heart aches for you in a way that i really don't think anybody knows is humanly possible. I don't think many people will understand how losing parent affects them in every aspect of their life. If somebody mentions the word Mum in a seminar it creates a pang that shocks through my system, reminding me that i do not have a set of parents. Growing up through a single parent was hard, i craved those special moments with my mum such as reading, writing and boys. From the letter you wrote me i know you loved me with all your heart, but i don't know this as a physical gesture. With every touch and feel of a person i wish it could be my mum. If i could wish for anything in this world it would be a hug from my Mum. People do not understand, my Dad has created so much love around me, yet i know he will never be complete without you, and neither will I. The only thing i know is that I can try and be a Mum that i know you wanted to be, and by doing this I will live on through myself.

Mum, i love you with all my heart. Words sound so mediocre but i cannot describe the love and grief i feel for you. I hope you are proud, that is all i want.

I love you

All my love

Joanne xxxxxxxx

To my handsome big strong son Tyler, I love and miss you every day. life is so different now, not so bright without you, I miss hearing your laugh and seeing you smile. My promise to you, is to carry on and do my best to stay strong, and to help others. I want you to be proud of me when we meet again. love your broken hearted Mum x

to my nany crom not a day goes by i dont think of you my uncle mike anutie marg thanks for the good times

my dad died 8 months ago from a heart attack, i was there and saw it with my own eyes its the worst thing i have ever been through, my dad brought me and my 2 brothers up my mum left i was 6 he did his best do give us what we needed. without him now things are very hard he was my best friend we did everything together evn go out on a sunday for a drink which i loved was my favourite day of the week, then shortly after my dad died my nanna passed away along with my grandad they were both very ill so didnt come as a shock but still very sad that they are no longer here. but now that i am working i am trying to get my life on track again trying to make my dad proud of me. i just keep thinking no matter where you are or what you are doing they are always there with you protecting you

My Dad died when I was seven. Even now, more than 40 years later, I have some very sad times and do so wish things had been different. We both missed out on so much because he died.

For my beautiful baby boy Ethan, born 16/10/2011 passed away after an epic battle 17/11/2011. My only happiness is you no longer feel pain and you gave me a month to love you. I will never forget this pain as it is all I have to feel like I was a mother, as sometimes it feels like a dream that never happened. I have not given up hope and want another baby and I will honour our love through them as they will be spoilt to have all this love I had stored for you and all the love I will have stored for them on top. Forever in my thoughts everyday my son lots of love x x x x x

mum-Samantha Karen Mealing: 16.4.1976-14.3.2001
we all miss her so much and i was 1 and a half when she died

To my husband Paul, I think about you every single day and so do the girls. We miss you like crazy. Life is not the same anymore without you in it. You will always be loved. Me and the girls will always remember you xxxxxxxx